TIME FOR THE BEACH
Oh my god no put me down i want to stay insidedon’t be such a sour puss
He rested in his arms for a moment when the other hugged him back. He listened to Ryo talk and felt himself be pushed away.He stood up again. “I’ll try.” He replied, talking about doubting himself. It was something he needed to work on. “Hey! I am the Master Of Love! I just… Yeah I’m going to take a shower. You do that, and be careful!” He then moved out of the room, a sigh escaping his lips. There was no need to rush things. They had their whole life ahead of them.He moved into the bathroom and turned on the warm water. He got in and leaned against the wall, closing his eyes. His mind wandering and pondering on some thoughts. He then moved to wash his hair and body, but his mind didn’t stay quiet. It just kept thinking of things. On what happened a few minutes ago, about the future about Ryo’s heart. Anything really. He wondered more though on why he hadn’t been ready yet. He was sure he was before Ryo entered him. Why did he start crying?
He chewed on his lower lip, trying to think of a reason on why he acted the way he did. Maybe he was scared, not of sex or anything but maybe he was scared Ryo would leave afterwards. He knew that Ryo wouldn’t but the thought of it made him want to cry. There had to be other reasons though, He shook his head. What done was done. There was no need to worry about it. Ryo would wait for him, wouldn’t he?
Fubuki slowly turned off the shower. He stepped out and took the soft towel in his hands and began drying himself. They loved each other. They weren’t going to separate. He looked at the fogged up mirror and smiled.
“Tomorrow will be a better day and we’ll do a lot of fun things. Tonight was just an off night. I should be looking on the brightside! I did give Ryo an amazing blowjob that he obviously liked!” Even saying that though, he felt his cheeks burn red. He walked out of the bathroom, with the towel wrapped around his waist. “Ryoooooooo~!”
When Fubuki had left he got up and got a pair of clean clothes on. He moved all the clothes that were thrown in the floor into a small pile to be taken out whenever they decided to do the laundry. However as long as the other was gone he couldn’t stop thinking about how awful he felt. He forced the other to stop the situation.
It was the right thing to do, but he was still very stressed out over it. Fubuki really wanted to go on, but he forced them to stop. He couldn’t dwell on something like this, he knew what he done was right and the best for the both of them.
Ryo fixed the bed up, straightening the covers up. Everything looked like it was before the two had crawled under them last time. With a sigh he sat back down on the bed, clothed once more. He didn’t want to think about what just happened, but there wasn’t much that he could do to keep his mind off of it.
The blunette leaned his head against the wall, waiting for Fubuki to return. He still wouldn’t be caught up in the same thing he was, right? Well, he couldn’t be sure but he could hope. Ryo perked up when he heard the other calling out to him. It wasn’t long, but it seemed like ages to him. “Fubuki.” He couldn’t help but smile to when he finally saw him. “Feel better now?”
(Source: ryo-marufuji)
Fubuki stood up only to feel his hand grabbed. He looked back at the other. He stood there and stared at his lover. “I just feel stupid. I mean you’re right I should have expected it but I didn’t. I ruined it and I just feel really stupid.” He looked to the ground. “I’m sorry. I don’t mean to be like this.” He stated softly and sat back down. He hugged the other tightly. “We’ll try another time. You’re right. And I’ll be ready for that next time.” He kissed his cheek. “You did the right thing. I’m glad you stopped. I just feel stupid for not realizing that I probably wasn’t ready yet…”
“You’re not stupid, don’t say that about yourself.” If there was one thing that he didn’t like it had to be Fubuki thinking lowly of himself. He let out a sigh as he returned the others hug. “You didn’t do anything wrong.” He shook his head and then appreciated the kiss. “You’re okay, stop doubting yourself. I could tell that you weren’t comfortable or that you weren’t experience, mister Master of Love.” He shooed the other away now that he finished saying what he wanted. “Go shower and I’ll make sure everything gets cleaned up here.”
(Source: ryo-marufuji)
Fubuki laid on the bed. He was silent for a long time. Lost in his own thoughts. He closed his eyes. He felt stupid. He felt so many things. He nodded finally and waited for the other to move from hovering over him. He re opened his eyes and looked to the side. His eyes staring at the wall.“I’m going to go take a shower…” He finally stated, just wanting this moment to be over.
He moved off of the top of the other and just sat next to him. Sure he felt bad, but it’s something that he felt was right. It was silent. This only made things worse for him. Like he was the bad person for stopping everything. He leaned back and rested his head against the wall. He wanted to say sorry, but he couldn’t speak. Nothing would come out. ‘Please don’t be upset.’ The one thing Ryo managed to get out was a sigh. Great, way to go.
When Fubuki spoke and got up he didn’t say anything. His eyes were kept on the bed that was in front of him. He grabbed onto Fubuki’s hand to keep him nearby. Finally he got a sentence out, something to say to the other. “Do you want to talk about it…?”
(Source: ryo-marufuji)
hello friends this isn’t a very important post but i would like to take a minute to tell everyone about my dokis for fubuki mun.
we’ve been rping together for almost a year now and it’s really cool to see how we’ve progressed and how our characters have grown. seeing as how ryo was jumpy and didn’t like someone else touching him when they first met, you can’t say that they haven’t grown. neither of us are on as much anymore but we’re still around and get to replies when we can. even so, it’s nice logging on and having a reply because i enjoy reading their writing a whole bunch.
i appreciate that they’ve stuck around even when i’ve lost internet and went on hiatus because i lost my muse. much love for them.
insert kisses here
